Some of the things I’m missing.

As I mentioned in my previous post, it is October 1st. Today came the realization that it is definitely Fall. And that’s when the nostalgia came knocking at my door.

My first sign that Autumn has arrived is always just a feeling. The sensation that all is calm in the world. Leaves are falling, children are playing, and American football is starting. This usually occurs to me on a mid to late September Sunday morning, driving through my neighborhood on a clear, breezy day (except, of course, when I was at school..there it would strike me as I walked to class in a light zip up jacket). When I parked my car in my driveway, I would stand and look up at the sky, thanking the universe for giving me such a pure sense of my surroundings. Walking into my house ensured the constant football games on TV all day, which is always a pleasure, and a true staple of Fall in America. The promise of a big family dinner later on that day was comforting. Now, I’m somewhere completely different, and it just isn’t the same. It is still nice, but I’m longing for that moment when all things fall perfectly into place (haha get it..”fall” into place).

I’m also missing midterms. I know how ridiculous that sounds. Who wants to study for hours on end, just to figure out you’ve studied all the wrong things and then have to pray for the best? Frankly, I do. And not because I love spending time reading the same thing over and over again, but because I love the feeling of knowing that I’m expanding my mind and thinking critically about important things. I also love the occasional study groups, because the discussions are so thought provoking and intelligent. Maybe it’s just because I have brilliant friends, but our conversations during those times never ceased to amaze me.

So I guess I will just have to keep my mind off of those things today, because I need to be happy, not sad, when going onto this fierce bowling competition with the church group tonight. It’s pretty important that I feel up to the task of kicking some ass. I’ve got to talk some serious game, here…because we all know I’m the world’s worst bowler.

Anyway–Here is Autumn in Rosenheim, as I sit on the back porch, reading Portia de Rossi’s Unbearable Lightness:


A day of revelations

Today, I had a few epiphanies. Let us review, shall we?

1.) People get pissy about weird things.
          -I’m fairly certain my pseudo-mom got really annoyed with me for not wanting anything special from the grocery store today. I mean, who gets irritated about that? You don’t have to spend money on me. Be happy.

2.) Some people may have the parenting gene, but they don’t have the disciplining gene.
          -Pseudo-mom has the capacity to be a really good, compassionate mother, as she proved when I teared up a little bit at the mention of my family. Unfortunately, she gives her kids everything they want. I’m pretty sure that she doesn’t want to deal with the screaming and crying, so she just gives in. Even if it looks like she’s not going to give in, and takes away a toy, for instance, she gives it back literally 10 seconds later to shut the kid up. Great.

3.) Everyone in this country should be 700 lbs. But they’re not.
           -On top of the meat thing, Germans eat giant pretzels. Also, I was offered a piece of buttered bread with nutella on it today. Enough said.

4.) If I were able to come home for Christmas, this would all be so much easier.
           -I miss my family, and if I knew I could spend the holidays with them, I probably wouldn’t have been so sad today.

5.) I’m about to be bombarded with ground beef. Seriously. Bombarded.
           -Pseudo-mom went to the store today. Three packs of ground freakin’ beef. Beef. Beef that I haven’t eaten since February 2009. Faaaaaabulous. I’ll keep my hair up so I don’t have to scramble for a hair tie when my entire stomach comes up.

Other than all that. At least I got to eat tuna tonight. I can actually handle tuna.